Karen (estherchaya) wrote,

No Mental Energy Left

I am so unbelievably exhausted. Ellie wouldn't sleep last night and at 7pm I took her out of her crib and fed her. And I fell asleep feeding her. Seth went to learn with Shmuel at 8:45 and I don't even remember him leaving. Sometime while he was gone, I woke up because Sam was screaming and I put a sleeping Ellie back in her crib and got Sam out of his and fed him and fell asleep while feed him. Seth came home and found both of us completely asleep on the bed. He put Sam back into bed, suggested that I get into PJs and asked if I wanted to pump (negatory) and got me under the covers. I woke up at 3am and 5am to feed babies, but otherwise did not get out of bed until 6:30am, but I'm still exhausted. What's my excuse? I have no idea.

Falling asleep so early last night was a bad idea as there is still much to be done to get ready for Pesach. Thankfully, on Sunday, my cleaning lady came (and my nanny came as well because I'm a completely spoiled rotten brat) and we got a lot done. The kitchen is 90% turned over (just need to finish covering the stove and kasher the sink and bring down the Pesach dishes from the attic and all will be right with the world. The rest of the house is pretty much in order, except I have to close off the cabinets in the dining room and close up the chometz shelves in the store room. Otherwise, we're fully turned over. Still, it feels like a mountain of work, and I haven't begun to cook anything yet. Sigh. Oh, and there's still some niggling Pesach shopping to be done. It'll happen sometime, right?

Did I mention Seth is going to Boston Thursday night? Gah!

In other news, the babies are a lot of fun - they're all rolling over and giggling and playing with toys and really enjoying the exersaucers and jumparoo (Sam especially loves the jumparoo!). They have actual personalities now, which is a lot of fun to see. My new high chairs arrived, which signals the beginning of the end... sooner or later I'm going to have to accept that these kiddos are going to have to eat real food. Ellie is the one who is actually ready for it, I think. All of a sudden, yesterday, she started demanding 8oz bottles during the day. She's still content to nurse and she gets about 6oz when she's nursing, but when I'm not around and she's getting bottles, she eats a full 8oz! Even Sam still only eats 6oz, so for sure, Ellie's starting to need something more. And now, I think now I'm ready to move on myself. A month ago? I wasn't ready, but now I am. Right AFTER Pesach. :)

Julian had an OT evaluation at the school a week and a half ago and we had a meeting to discuss it yesterday. The meeting went well. The OT loved him and found many of the same things that we expected. He's definitely got some attention/sensory issues. She said at this age it's hard to know whether they're attention or sensory based issues, but they're probably a bit of both. She's recommended a few OTs in the area. She also suggested that we get a referral for a developmental pediatrician. I'll talk with our pediatrician about that. Julian's issues are compounded by attachment/abandonment disorders, which makes things tricky... it makes traditional behaviour modification strategies less useful and means we need other strategies to help him. So we'll see.

Also, we mailed our tax returns TODAY. Talk about waiting until the last minute. We're getting the biggest refunds we've ever gotten. Thanks to our little bundles of tax deductions. Sheesh.

For now, I'm just so unbelievably tired I'm not sure what to think. I guess it's all just catching up with me. Maybe I'll feel better after a week off (I'm taking the whole week of Pesach off).
Tags: exhausted

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