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At Least I'm Never Bored! - Karen's Musings
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At Least I'm Never Bored!
Yesterday I got a shiny new PICC line.  I'd been having problems getting #3 to run fluids, and eventually even the Zofran wouldn't go through it very well.   The sutures holding it in place had come out, and the tip had migrated, so it was in the wrong place.  All good reasons to get it checked out.  But the radiologist at the hospital yesterday was pretty ticked off that I was there taking up his time.  "But you're pregnant!  There are risks!  Don't you know there are risks?!  And the baby is taking up more room than the last time you got a new line.  It's not safe!"    Um.  Yeah?  There are risks?  Are the risks greater than the risks of me getting no fluids for the next couple months?  No?  Then at least look at the line.  Pretty please?  

Well, he took a look and the tip had migrated and to make matters worse, it was against the sidewall of the vein, and it was too occluded for him to be able to fix it - so I got a new line.    I admit, I felt a little vindicated, since earlier he had implied that I was wasting his time.

Meanwhile, the overall crappiness of this pregnancy continue to vex me.  I've got really awful carpal tunnel syndrome - it hasn't been this bad since I left my music degree program.  Every morning I wake up and my hands are in agony - can't bend them, can't feel my fingers, the pain in my wrists radiates all the way up my arm. It sucks.  I know this will likely largely resolve after I deliver this baby - but it's unlikely to go away completely since it was already a problem for me in the first place.  So I'm seeing a hand specialist on Monday.  (And no, wearing a brace at night doesn't help)

My blood sugar continues to be ridiculously high, particularly toward the end of the day.  Fortunately, my fasting levels are fine most of the time, which turns out to be better news than I knew.  The perinatologist told me today that it's typically the women who struggle with their fasting levels that are more highly predisposed to diabetes later in life.  So I have at least one plus on that!

I'm in pain a lot of time, walking is excruciating, I have terrible headaches, and I have horrific acid reflux.  I was getting IV Zantac for the acid reflux, but there is a national shortage on IV Zantac - so I have been switched to IV Pepcid, which finally arrived today.  Here's hoping it helps.  
Most vexingly is that I'm starting to have difficulty sleeping - not because of all the normal reasons - but because I have been having ridiculous dreams.  Nightmares, really.  But they're odd.  And I don't like them one bit.  

Home stretch or not, I won't feel better about this until delivery day.  Yes, I know that compared to when this all started there's hardly any time left at all in this pregnancy, but it frankly doesn't make the here and now any more pleasant.  Can't wait for this to be over!

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eyelid From: eyelid Date: April 10th, 2010 12:59 pm (UTC) (Link)
That really does all suck. I don't know how you are dealing with it! I think people tell you "you're on the home stretch etc" because it's the only positive thing they can think of to say about the situation.
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: April 11th, 2010 01:56 am (UTC) (Link)
I do hate all the whinging I do about this damn pregnancy. And there ARE things I love about it. Like, you know, the fact that I'm pregnant at all! And the fact that it's only one! But mostly, it's just clear that my body does not function well while pregnant and I am just never going to be one of those women who adores every second of pregnancy.

You're quite right about the home stretch comments. But I've been getting "home stretch" comments since JANUARY! (If I'd delivered in January, my baby would have died, for what it's worth). People wonder why I don't like to tell my due date or how many weeks' pregnant I am. It's because even the few people who do know still do the same crap I got with the triplets which I TOLD them stressed me out too much: I get a call (or an email) EVERY WEEK saying "You're X weeks now!" or "Well, now that you're past 24 weeks, you can breathe easy because you're in the home stretch!" or "You're so close! What a relief it must be!" Exactly the countdown I wanted to avoid.

And yes, I'm a bitter old hag. I know everyone means well and I know I'm especially touchy about all this. I'm just waiting for this to be but a distant memory. :)
From: (Anonymous) Date: April 12th, 2010 01:43 pm (UTC) (Link)
>> And yes, I'm a bitter old hag.

Old, no; hag, no. But you've certainly earned the right to feel bitter!
From: (Anonymous) Date: April 11th, 2010 01:37 am (UTC) (Link)
Sometimes I get nightmares as a side effect to meds. Maybe one of your meds changed recently and it's causing it?

Nice picture! Hang in there!
From: (Anonymous) Date: April 11th, 2010 01:41 am (UTC) (Link)
to clarify - sometimes it's not the meds but the fillers in them that give me strange side effects (like nightmares, nausea, dizziness or other TMI side effects)

I once was fine on one med from generic company A, until I had a refill done with a generic company B - and then a few side effects kicked in. I switched back to generic company A and then I was fine again.
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: April 11th, 2010 01:52 am (UTC) (Link)
generics are funny like that. They are allowed to have a 10% margin of error in either direction - so some people are really sensitive to those differences. My oldest uses a Clonidine patch which just recently became available as a generic - but the generic doesn't work AT ALL, so we spend hundreds of dollars to keep the brand as the insurance has no formulary exceptions. Bah.
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: April 11th, 2010 01:50 am (UTC) (Link)
The picture is actually from the night before I delivered my triplets - I don't have a recent belly shot, so that's as good as it gets right now!
From: atimesif Date: April 12th, 2010 04:07 am (UTC) (Link)
I was thinking that it looks like more than one, but in case you were keeping that a secret this time I didn't want to comment on that :)
I'm relieved to hear that it's a pic from your trip pregnancy!

BTW, with Julian, perhaps try another generic company. Maybe another generic's formula will work well.
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: April 12th, 2010 11:24 am (UTC) (Link)
There are limited generics available for this particular drug - it only *just* started being available as a generic. The issue with the generic is two fold - first, it doesn't work (that's a huge strike against it), and second, it doesn't stick as well (it's supposed to be a week-long patch. The brand name stays on for a few days, the generic stays on for 3/4 of a day at best).

We're appealing the insurance co's unwillingness to make an exception for the formulary - and our developmental pediatrician is writing a letter in support of that appeal. But meanwhile, we're paying it out of pocket (it's almost $10/patch out of pocket - and that's WITH a professional courtesy discount for my husband).
From: atimesif Date: April 13th, 2010 03:17 am (UTC) (Link)
Wow - I hope you win the appeal.
skatured From: skatured Date: April 11th, 2010 02:32 am (UTC) (Link)
I would never have guessed in a million years that this pregnancy would have been harder than the triplets...but I guess there are still mysteries in the world. You are doing great despite all the setbacks ... I can't wait to see the baby. ( as in, I can wait ... but it'll be worth it).
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: April 11th, 2010 04:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
nobody guessed this pregnancy would be harder than the triplet pregnancy. We did have reason to believe it would still be a high risk pregnancy - but no reason to believe it would be THIS crazy!

I am ready for this to be DONE! :)
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