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insult to injury
I called to make an appointment with my fertility specialist. I trust my OB and I know he'll be very aggressive in trying to determine the cause of the miscarriage, but I also know RE's and OB's sometimes look at different sides of a problem, so I want to make sure they're communicating with each other. I don't want my OB running a battery of tests and then three months later having the RE say, "why wasn't this test run?" I don't want two rounds of testing. I want it over with. I want to know what the next step is, even if the next step is "do nothing." I love my fertility specialist. She always treats me like I'm the only person on her mind; she remembers random things about my life; she listens and considers her answers to my questions carefully, and she asks appropriate questions.

She is also, apparently, on leave for at least three months. I hope everything is okay. I don't know why she's on leave, but she didn't mention it when I saw her a few weeks ago, so I'm guessing it was rather sudden. I'm worried about her, but my selfish self is, well, being selfish. I want her, not some substitute!

I have an appointment with another doctor in the practice, a doctor I have a lot of respect for and whose opinion I trust. In fact, there's only one doctor at that office that I don't care for, so I really had my pick of a lot of really good doctors. Dr. S. has been in the business a long time, he's the best of the best in a lot of ways. He's funny and smart and he listens to me when I see him for monitoring appointments and I know he'll be a fine subsitute. I always knew if I hadn't been originally scheduled with Dr. T, that I would have been very happy with Dr. S. But he's not her. And he doesn't know me. And I'm a lot more than what's in my chart. So my selfish self is pleased to have such a fun, amazing substitute who knows the field as well as anyone else, but sad to not have Dr. T to turn to right now.

Mostly, I just want to know where to go from here, in as prudent a fashion as necessary, and I want input from both sides of the fence (OB/RE sides), so seeing Dr. S. is fine. I just hope I don't end up feeling like I'm starting from scratch.

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goudagirl From: goudagirl Date: October 11th, 2006 07:59 pm (UTC) (Link)
I know that there isn't much anyone can say that will help right now, bu, I know I am not alone in wishing you peace with this situation and hope in what is to come. you're a wonderful person, and being worried about your doctor just proves that.

I hope you are comfortable with the new doctor and that things result in the way you want them. *hug*
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: October 12th, 2006 05:31 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks. I'm okay. I have my moments of very definitely NOT okay, but mostly, I know I'll be fine. I also know I'll be comfortable with the new doctor, as I've seen him a number of times and I have a lot of respect for him. It just threw me for a loop.
hindarochel From: hindarochel Date: October 11th, 2006 09:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
Just hugs. Nothing else but hugs. And prayers.
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: October 12th, 2006 05:32 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks. I appreciate it.
pocketnaomi From: pocketnaomi Date: October 11th, 2006 09:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ugh. I do understand wanting your OWN doctor. But FWIW, if my guess is correct about who Dr. S. is, he was our doctor when we were going there, and he was absolutely terrific -- personally as well as professionally.
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: October 12th, 2006 05:42 pm (UTC) (Link)
Mostly I want her so that I don't feel like I'm starting from scratch. But yes, I'm sure it's the same doctor; it's Doctor Stillman. I saw him for probably 50% of my monitoring appointments (so I saw him excess of a dozen times at least), and he did two of my IUIs. I like him a lot and I absolutely know he's the right person to go to in the absence of Dr. T.

Funny story: I always thought Dr. S. was very funny and personable and I get along tremendously well with him. But more than one member of the staff confided in me that he was a serious, no-nonsense doctor without much of a sense of humour. But they all said there isn't anyone who knows the field of fertility medicine better than him. I always thought it interesting that his staff and I had such incredibly different perspectives. Either way, I found him to be a great comfort whenever I had concerns or questions.
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