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  • I had a cardiologist appointment yesterday. After he did an EKG, he told me it showed that I've had a heart attack. ACK! So I'm sitting there having a mild heart attack reacting to him saying that, when he says "but I don't believe it; I think they put the sensor in the wrong place." Then he proceeded to take my blood pressure. Not surprisingly, my blood pressure, while still not alarmingly high, was the highest it's ever been. Stupid doctors. I have to go back next week for an echocardiogram. Beats the alternative. The other option was to do another TEE. That's no fun. No fun at all.
  • My office is FREAKING HOT. I do NOT appreciate this. It is, apparently, always like this. BLEH.
  • I couldn't sleep at all last night. I took a vicodin before bed and it kept me up all darned night. I think I finally drifted off around 3am. Seth's alarm went off at 4am, he was out the door before 5, my alarm went off at 6. Bleh. I am so darned tired right now.
  • I'm going to see jeannegrrl at lunchtime today. That should be fun.
  • I have finally gotten turkey day pictures of the boy online. Will post a Julian update at some point.
  • I have decided that I'm in desperate need of a Palm Pilot. I would like it relatively small. Not bulky. The one I had years ago was ridiculously bulky, which is one of the reasons I got rid of it. Suggestions are welcome.
  • I have been grinding and clenching my teeth a lot lately. This is not good. I spend a lot of time in pain because of it, but I can't seem to stop. I do it in my sleep, which I've always done, but the new thing is that I do it all the time now. I don't realize it until I realize how much my jaw hurts. Bleh.
  • I have to run right now, but I'm sure there's other stuff. I hope everyone is well!

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gnomi From: gnomi Date: November 29th, 2005 04:28 pm (UTC) (Link)
I have decided that I'm in desperate need of a Palm Pilot. I would like it relatively small. Not bulky. The one I had years ago was ridiculously bulky, which is one of the reasons I got rid of it. Suggestions are welcome.

Handhelds keep getting smaller and smaller. I have a Palm Tungsten E (they're now selling the E2, which is essentially the same machine, with some stuff updated), and it is very lightweight. It's 4.5 x 3.0 x 0.5 inches.
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: November 29th, 2005 06:18 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks!
happyduck1979 From: happyduck1979 Date: November 29th, 2005 06:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
second vote for the tungsteun.. I have one and LOVE it.
mamadeb From: mamadeb Date: November 29th, 2005 04:38 pm (UTC) (Link)
I use a Tungsten C, but I want to second gnomi's Tungsten E2. It's what I got my husband for his birthday, and he really loved it.

It's small and easy to use.
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: November 29th, 2005 06:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks! I appreciate the input.
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estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: November 29th, 2005 06:15 pm (UTC) (Link)
I thought of you Saturday night... I went to the Ballet and they did some interesting things with the lighting design.

It was a mistake for sure. The echocardiogram isn't to check on heart attack status, it's because I've got a patent foramen ovale, and a heart murmur. But neither of those is new.
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estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: December 7th, 2005 12:58 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ahem. Excuse me? "'Now' she finds culture?" Honey, I've been going to the ballet, symphony, and opera for 2 decades. I just don't go as often as I used to because I used to get free or seriously cheap tickets.
From: have_inner_lady Date: November 29th, 2005 05:29 pm (UTC) (Link)
I have been grinding and clenching my teeth a lot lately.

Strange: So have I been, despite the fact that I'm not under stress from anything, and I don't think I normally clench at all. Must be something about this era.

Wishes for your health.
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: November 29th, 2005 06:16 pm (UTC) (Link)
oh, my health is fine. The cardiology appointment was nothing more than routine.

The teeth clenching/grinding, however, is REALLY PISSING ME OFF.
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estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: November 29th, 2005 06:32 pm (UTC) (Link)
Well, to be fair, he really wasn't alarmist about it. I looked over his shoulder and told him that it was all just bumps and squiggles to me. He said, "well, it says you had a heart attack but I don't believe it." No pause in between. He didn't even want to re-run the EKG because he knew it wasn't right. I had a normal EKG in July. It was really just a split second of me going AAAAAAACCCCCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!

Anyway, the echocardiogram really isn't to confirm or deny a heart attack... it's just routine.

As for the bite guard, I'm fully aware that I need one at night. But I don't think that will help me during the day. And, um, I don't know who you're thinking of, but I don't mind dentists.
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estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: November 29th, 2005 07:47 pm (UTC) (Link)
We don't know yet if we're away for shabbos. We were supposed to be, but something's come up. So I won't know until tonight whether we'll be home. If we are home, and you did want to join us, it would absolutely just be the 4 1/2 of us and an early night. I'm not inviting other company.
magid From: magid Date: November 29th, 2005 06:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ways to give patients heart attacks:
1. Tell them they've had one.

Oy. I hope all the health stuff works out ok, and more sleep happens, and a palm pilot appears, and lunch was good, and your new pony suits ;-)
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: November 29th, 2005 06:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
oh, I definitely did not have a heart attack. The echocardiogram is routine...not anything to worry about.
hannahsarah From: hannahsarah Date: November 29th, 2005 06:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
DON'T start a post like that! You nearly gave ME a heart attack!! Don't scare me like that, lady.

You might want to ask your doctor if Buspar is contraindicated for someone who'd trying to concieve. It's an anti-anxiety drug that's non addictive and non sedating. I highly recommend it.

estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: November 29th, 2005 07:44 pm (UTC) (Link)
Except I don't think I'm having anxiety about anything... That's why this teeth grinding/clenching thing is so ridiculous.
hannahsarah From: hannahsarah Date: November 30th, 2005 03:36 am (UTC) (Link)
Anxiety can be like stress. If you have constant, low level anxiety, it will show up in more subtle ways like teeth grinding. You may have been feeling like this for so long, that it seems normal to you, and you've actually forgotten what it feels like *not* to be anxious or stressed. Just from reading your journal it seems like you have a lot of responsibility lately, and it may be taking a bit of a toll on you. ( I realize LJ is a place where people vent, and don't always talk about the good stuff as well)

I could be way off base, who knows, but it's just a thought.
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: December 7th, 2005 01:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
What you're saying certainly makes sense. Probably I shy away from admitting that, because it feels like I'm admitting I can't handle the responsibility I've got. Le Sigh.
From: (Anonymous) Date: December 7th, 2005 07:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
If you had a broken leg, would you refuse to use crutches?
If you had a headache, would you refuse to take an asprin?
If you had diabetes, would you refuse to admit you need insulin?

Unfortunately, people are still ashamed to admit when they need mental health help, and because of the stigma, suicides, murder and drug addiction happen. Our society needs to get over it, and admit that health is health, and it doesn't matter what kind. We are commanded to guard ALL of our health, regardless of what undeducated people may think of us.

I fought depression all alone for years, and when I look back back at all that wasted time, when I could have been happy on the proper medication, well, it's just seems such a shame. I could have done so much more with my younger years, but I was too stubborn, and ashamed.

Don't think of it as admitting that you can't handle responsiblity. Think of it as correcting a slight chemical imbalance. Seriously, it's no big deal, unless you make it into one.

:-)

hannahsarah From: hannahsarah Date: December 7th, 2005 07:57 pm (UTC) (Link)

Ack!

Sorry, that was me. I forgot to log in.

*I need more coffee!*


estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: December 7th, 2005 08:03 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: Ack!

no problem. I responded (below)
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: December 7th, 2005 08:03 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm very fortunate to not have to deal with depression (at least beyond the normal occasional down day). I fully admit that I have days where I DO have anxiety I can't control. And those definitely occur when my stress level is through the roof.

This teeth grinding thing is new-ish and it's driving me bonkers. Now that I think about it... I think it started about the time that Julian's mother changed her mind and said she wanted Julian back. So maybe that's what kick-started it.

I dunno. I just don't feel stressed right now. And I'm very good at identifying stress because I'm often under it.

Oh, and um, if I had a headache would I refuse to take aspirin (or other appropriate medicine)? Er. Well, yeah.
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