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Lately I've been restless. Restless to move. Far away. Not that I don't want to end up back here, eventually. But I'm bored. Or restless. Or something. I've just never stayed put for this long before. I don't know what it is. I'm just desperate to get out, out, out. Just for a few years. Honest.

Sigh.

I don't know what's wrong with me.

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kressel From: kressel Date: May 24th, 2005 03:45 pm (UTC) (Link)

a totally different subject



I read your post about segulos, composed an answer, and discovered I don't have the right to post at chayeisarah. So here's what I posted:

As I understand it, a segulah is a mitzvah whose reward is partly known, like baking challah for the first Shabbos after Pesach bringing parnossah. Now, as I'm sure you'll point out, a pregnant woman isn't required to go to the mikvah, so how is it a mitzvah? The answer is: I don't know. Sometimes it seems more like a matter of doing something that adds kedushah. For example, some single women buy talleisim, which is not a mitzvah for a woman, but she they do it in the hope that the men who will use the talleisim for a mitzvah will soon show up in their lives.

One of my teachers in sem advised that we don't do any segulos unless the action itself interests us. She regretted her purchase of a tallis, but she was glad she learned through Shir HaShirim. I think it's a good rule of thumb, and I'm a big believer in segulos.

A pregnant lady goes in the mikvah for an easy labor. A woman hoping to become pregnant go under dip 9 times, having in mind that she will not necessarily do this on every mikvah visit. And it is supposed to be good for a man's seed that he puts the challah crumbs from the Shabbos tisch into a spoon and eats them.

Anybody know segulos for righteous children?
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estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: May 24th, 2005 04:10 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'd love it. Except we can't take Julian out of state (except on quick trips, of course).
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From: cecerose Date: May 24th, 2005 04:06 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm glad I'm not the only person feeling that way.

Lately, I'm having fantasies about selling off everything and moving to Seattle or something. And I don't know why.
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: May 24th, 2005 04:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm right there with ya.
leahmiriam From: leahmiriam Date: May 24th, 2005 07:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
I have similar fantasies, chucking it all and moving somewhere interesting. I fantasize about having a job that requires me to say "would you like fries with that" because thinking would be optional.
ginamariewade From: ginamariewade Date: May 24th, 2005 04:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
ROAD TRIP!!!
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: May 24th, 2005 04:38 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yeah, Seth seems to think I need a vacation. And he's probably right. But where to go? And when? I have no leave time. I had finally accrued some and then holidays got in the way. I'm accruing some now, but come October, they'll all be eaten with High Holidays.

I think that may be part of the problem. I haven't had a vacation in, well, a long time. Even in college, I worked full time or more through most of my "breaks." Blah.
kressel From: kressel Date: May 24th, 2005 04:40 pm (UTC) (Link)



For a very long time, my husband and I lived on a low budget and vacations were impossible. So how about some day trips?

Also, I find a great escape daily in fiction.
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: May 24th, 2005 04:46 pm (UTC) (Link)
I take day trips. I don't want day trips. I want to get on a plane and go far away and not think about my responsibilities at home for a few days. Then I want to fly home.

We have neither the budget, nor the time. I'm not trying to be difficult, or negative. I'm just so darned tired. I'm tired of working, I'm tired of driving, I'm tired of the endless renovations at our house that will never get done. I'm tired.
From: lola100 Date: May 24th, 2005 04:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
Let me tell you - vacation is not all it's cracked up to be. I was really looking forward to getting away - and then I went. I still worried about home, I was still tired because I didn't really rest much, and when I got back it was as if I had never gone.
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: May 24th, 2005 04:57 pm (UTC) (Link)
Honestly, what I want is for Julian's grandparents to take him for a week. Then I'll take two weeks off. I'll spend the first week cleaning/watching movies/whatever, and the second week enjoying Julian.

It also will never ever happen.

And it's not Julian that's causing this. I feel... stifled... by everything. And it will pass. It always does. Problem is that it always comes back.
From: lola100 Date: May 24th, 2005 05:00 pm (UTC) (Link)
I really think it's normal. Good weeks, bad weeks, good days, bad days. Sometimes I just wish I could sleep till noon. Even just one day. Everything is just non stop. Work, kids, cleaning house, laundry, shopping. Argh! Never ending.
leahmiriam From: leahmiriam Date: May 24th, 2005 07:53 pm (UTC) (Link)

Westward HO or Southward Ho or Anywhere Ho

Like you, I have been feeling like chucking DC and heading west, or south, or somewhere. Sometimes I feel like my whole life is eaten up with work, no time for hobbies. Money isn't the issue, thank goodness, but I don't think the "quality" of our life is all that fantastic. I know what you mean about the vacation time being used for holidays...which really aren't holidays considering all the work that goes into them. If you could get some time off we could go to South Florida for a long weekend. That always fixes my personal blues...or perhaps Chicago? You had mentioned not being so keen on South Florida in a previous posting.

I also think the reason for my recent wanderlust is having lived in the DC area most of my life. Except for a brief stint in Richmond, which doesn't really count, I have only lived in Fairfax and Montgomery Counties. Which are about the same.

There is a saying that wherever you go you take yourself with you, so I remind myself that when I get really sad about where we live and the fact that there are places where I can get a really super house so much cheaper.

leahmiriam From: leahmiriam Date: May 24th, 2005 07:55 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: Westward HO or Southward Ho or Anywhere Ho

Oh crap I have totally blocked out the fact that I lived in Baltimore for three years.
From: gittygiggles Date: May 24th, 2005 05:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
move with us. you can afford a house down there ;)
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: May 24th, 2005 05:08 pm (UTC) (Link)
absolutely not.
ginamariewade From: ginamariewade Date: May 24th, 2005 05:10 pm (UTC) (Link)
Your icon is hilarious.
From: gittygiggles Date: May 24th, 2005 05:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
thanks :)
mamadeb From: mamadeb Date: May 24th, 2005 05:15 pm (UTC) (Link)
Come visit us? We have a futon and more books than we can possibly need.

I need a vacation. I need a week when I don't have to do anything at all - not cook, not go to work, not shop. Just do NOTHING.

We are going to Balticon this weekend, which should help.
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: May 24th, 2005 05:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
yeah, that's basically what I need.

Except, I think I'd like to go someplace and go shopping.
NY is a good place for that.
From: lola100 Date: May 24th, 2005 05:24 pm (UTC) (Link)
Don't you have off memorial day? Take a long weekend and go to NY!
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: May 24th, 2005 05:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
Seth is working Sunday. I don't want to leave him with Julian alone on his one day off that weekend. (I mean, he has shabbos off, but that's different). And I most definitely do NOT want to take Julian with us to NY. That would competely defeat the purpose.
From: lola100 Date: May 24th, 2005 05:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
Seth's working on Sunday? Wow - I guess you just can't catch a break!
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: May 24th, 2005 05:43 pm (UTC) (Link)
yeah. They were short pharmacists to staff, so they asked managers to fill the holes.
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estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: May 24th, 2005 05:26 pm (UTC) (Link)
On the other hand, maybe Seth and I could take Julian on a day trip to NJ or Philadelphia. Go get some kosher food that isn't the same ol' same ol'. That's not too bad a trip.
From: lola100 Date: May 24th, 2005 05:32 pm (UTC) (Link)
How is Julian in the car? Because that would be a lot of driving for one day. Unless you leave Sunday after work and stop in a cheap motel. Maybe you could call for a shaitel appointment too? A new shaitel always makes me happy ;)
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: May 24th, 2005 05:45 pm (UTC) (Link)
He loves the car because he gets to see other cars and TRUCKS and Buses! So he's very good with trips.

Would love to make a sheitel appointment then. But unfortunately, other bills have crept up, limiting my sheitel fund. :( Plus, would she even work on Memorial Day? I'm guessing not.
From: lola100 Date: May 24th, 2005 05:47 pm (UTC) (Link)
Lucky you - all my kids hate the car.

Yeah - like I said - money woes = BLECH.

This is LAKEWOOD. Most people here won't even know it's Memorial Day ;)
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: May 24th, 2005 05:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
really?????

Hrm. Maybe I should call her. I would love a new sheitel.

Hrm.

I wonder if I could find the money someplace.
From: lola100 Date: May 24th, 2005 05:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
If you end up calling - tell her your whole situation - traveling, only that day - she's relly nice and hopefully she'll fit you in.

Also - leave a message. She never answers the phone.
kressel From: kressel Date: May 24th, 2005 06:22 pm (UTC) (Link)



Hope you don't mind my interrupting. We've invested in some excellent CD's for our kids for long car trips. Rebbe Hill and Shmuel Kunda can be parents' best friends!

(Wouldn't work for Esther Chaya necessarily since Julian is still little, k'naina hara.)
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: May 24th, 2005 06:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
no, but Uncle Moishy works well for Julian.
From: lola100 Date: May 24th, 2005 06:24 pm (UTC) (Link)
My little one is the biggest problem - and she's only 18 months old. My oldest is 7 and the problem with her is car sickness.

But thanks.

By the way - I friended you earlier today. Hope that's OK.
kressel From: kressel Date: May 25th, 2005 01:40 am (UTC) (Link)



The two of you are reminding me that travelling with a toddler is a different world than travelling with kids.

But anyway, as long as we're on the subject of kids' tapes, I'd like to recommend some non-Jewish tapes called "Beethoven's Wig" and Beethoven's Wig II." They're classical music set to funny lyrics so kids will like them and also learn something. My husband bought them for laughs, but the kids love them also. My two oldest love Griegg's "Hall of the Mountain King," but my youngest's favorite is "The 1812 Overture", which he calls, "Shoot the Cannonball."

BTW, Lola, I friended you, too!
leahmiriam From: leahmiriam Date: May 24th, 2005 07:58 pm (UTC) (Link)
NY is a great place for that. Go to NY, see a show, eat, shop....
From: have_inner_lady Date: May 24th, 2005 05:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
Come on out. Julian and Rafael would have a great time keeping each other occupied, and I can point out The House That Goes Spluck, which is nearby and may help you feel better about your constant renovations.
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: May 24th, 2005 05:43 pm (UTC) (Link)
hey that's true.

Hrm.

When are you free on a Sunday? (Or there's Memorial Day, but I don't know if you're busy that day)
From: have_inner_lady Date: May 24th, 2005 06:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
This Sunday is fine. Memorial Day is fine. Which do you prefer? Or both?
estherchaya From: estherchaya Date: May 24th, 2005 06:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
This Sunday doesn't work. Let me talk to Seth about Memorial Day. That might just work!
eyelid From: eyelid Date: May 24th, 2005 07:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
Spring.
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